Life's cool Nerd's fool !

Things that I've Learnt in Matriks

2011-04-20T09:17:00.001-07:00

The first day in matriks had been disaster

Cause it's the first I had to take bath like a refugee taking a pail full of shampoos and toothpaste and toothbrush to get myself clean up

Up next nothing easier it's the steaming heat in the room even if you only stay in it for a second or two

How unlucky of me to get the last room of the particular row of rooms facing east if my magnetic sense hasn't got me wrong

And thus enabling me the pleasure of enjoying the sunrise whereby heat radiating from the sun directly absorbed by the walls of my room since there's none other obstacles

Third must be negativity from people surrounding you and the doubts that held your own breath

All happened because you are no longer with people you were familiar with

Everything was starting all over again like a newborn baby who is trying to adapt to this new world

It's so challenging to keep yourself sane especially when you are lost

Being helpless for not knowing who am I is the worst part of all

Whyyy?

Cause you have no friends who made you who you were back in Secondary School

You are all alone and thinking hard so if I were to do this It doesn't seem likely what I would do

So have I changed?

I hate changes but entering matriks makes me realised nothing remains constant

The fear of losing friends out there is yet another difficulty

I never thought it would be so hard

All of these pretty much sums up my messy all disoriented first 3months or more of my life back there in matriks

I needed time to sort out stuffs

Mind just wouldn't rest in peace giving me a break or cutting me some slacks

Questions never fail to keep me away from sleeping injecting insomnia into my life

However all these uneasiness emanating from the predication of stepping out of my comfort zone has definitely help shaped a better me

I am now a much cooler person in terms of dealing with disappointment when my expectations weren't met and meeting people with ridiculous attitude or behavior because it all happens for a reason

Like say the recent PSPM a.k.a final examination of semester 2 which I just sat for

I could tell I screwed my maths GAO GAO seriously literally but I had no hard feelings at all

Neil from Aussie would have told me the same thing over and over again which is : Owh! It's part of our lives! We have gone thru' those!

Yeah that's exactly what I had in mind whenever some dissatisfactions come about

There's no use to be mad over spilt milk

So let it be and accept it

Same goes to people

When you dislike someone

Keep your distance

Keep your mouth shut just never try to stab people's back

And that's it

While for the lifestyle part

It's all about getting used to

As long as you survived then everything will become as easy as how your habits would make you do stuffs

A cooler me in handling problems is definitely a mould I have fitted into provided by matriks

Other than that

I think my procrastination continues :p

Get some life peeps !

Cats

2011-04-16T08:39:00.001-07:00

I must be dog before current life

Gosh how much I hated cats or truth to be said am afraid of cats is annoying even the hell of myself

Obviously my friends take it as a joke

They would tease at how I got startled at the sudden sight of cats and jumping on my feet whenever the fur brushed with my legs

The way cats look in my eyes is ghostly

The spindle shaped pupil glowing eyeballs of the cats made them fearful

So this is what happened

Was having lunch in cafe and having a lively chat about how did our procrastination went the night before

Lol as if we have none better topic to discuss with

Come to think about it yeah that's it we really don't have good ideas to share

Nonsense just feels so right

Anyhow this damn cat with injured tail where the end fraction of the tail got fractured in the way into a U shaped showing the torment it had gone through

I take it as this particular cat must have been a nuisance to deserve beaten by karma right at its tail

Fine then since I had no interest on it's past I just ignored it stalking with pride some meters in radius away from us

Yet out of nowhere it just happened to sit on the stool next to me

WTFFF

I was shocked and tried to shoo it away but returned in vain

Now that instead of being frightened by me it glanced eyeing my food on the table with intense interest

If only I am not afraid of cats I would really kick its ass damn hard

I just couldn't even get near it

The tension grew

Everything seems so difficult to be resolved got it's way out just as simple as my friend smacked the head of the cat

Duh

I should have just asked my friend to do it

Anyhow even with the cat gone I will never sit on the stool it just sat on

They are as disgusting as anything you would never want to approach to

Cats are disasters !

Seriously? July?

2011-04-12T21:15:00.000-07:00

So I was on my way from my dorm to the cafe which is just located tight below my bedroom for dinner with a few of the guy friends

Just as we were to pass through the door way into the dawn light some notice on the board caught our attention

It's exactly the dateline for our entry into university

Pathetic enough there's no light as in synthetic light from bulb let alone fluorescent light

Duh how poor has our matriks become

However driven by curiosity and the need to know such stuffs cause it's related to me

Obviously with much hassle and hard time reading

Something shocked my inner peace for this once over the weekend

Goshhh

You gotta be kidding me

We're graduating in April

Can they take any longer than 3months just to sort us into respective university

How slow is their computer

Or they're in stone age using paperworks still

Okay I apologized for my rudeness cause it bump and crash right through all my plans

There's a zillion thing on my lists which can only be confirmed doing em if I were to know which university I am heading

Now the date is set and so so so later beyond my expectation which is end of may or middle of June

Come on Zhen

Positivity rules hoping hard meditating helps

Just cross my fingers all will be well

Remember Law of Attraction :)

Maths kills !

2011-04-12T20:57:00.000-07:00

If you didn't know already

I have zero maths brain cell

None connected well via dendrites within neurons

This is why I would be frowning over the most simple possibly question ever could be asked yet finding no solution

Duh I have no idea how

But numbers was alien to me and will always be So strange no matter how hard I try to convince myself that I love maths

Okay well maybe I haven't tried too hard

Anyways all of these never matters anymore

No longer cause am waving good bye to maths for good in my life

I couldn't believe I've reached this particular milestone and surviving from all the sufferings I had been through since the very first moment I was introduced to maths study

Yet now without any grief maths is gonna get the hell out of my coming future

Maths free

Ah hah that's what I call perfect life

Without having to scrutinize the ever so frustrating calculator is such a relief

Well so as much as I wanted to stay in the tune of gratitude

I gotta say

Maths you better watch your way and here I am with whole heartfelt wishing you never find a U turn so that you could always stay away from me

Loves Zhen :)))

Imagine!

2010-09-30T00:05:00.000-07:00

I had my jacket on(while the aircond is channeling streamsss of freezing air right perpendicular to me)

I had tissues stucked with sluggish mucus(which is no good)

I am feeling feverish on my forehead(maybe heated enough to boil up ya balls?a joke:D)

Arghhh chiewww!~

Yeah I just did sneezed

My head is definitely spinning(the song just stucked on replay-yeah! it's the you spin my head right round right round~ <<< this actually brought back hilarious moments when kim sent us all the horny but more to gross animation! *p.s. the window just wouldn't close damn you!)

Fingertips were stoned,numbed,doomed! it just lost all the flexibility i used to have:(

And the worst part is the minutes hand has got to swing more than half a round round the now-looked-extra-lengthy circumference of the clock!

I just need to get on bed right now!

How I wished Harry Potter would appear and gimme the least hint on how to perform teleport!

Please hell please!!!

World's spinning, Images're doubling back into singly and doubling...

Wake me up if I was in a dream

Time flies, literally!

2010-09-22T23:35:00.001-07:00

There's an old saying

Gold are precious

But there's no way one could buy time even with gold:)

How true it is and how feeble of us to admit it!

Anyways

I am kinda in the mood of both nervous and excited

Nervous for the reason my final is just around the very corner

In less than a month time

The coming ultimate exam will determine whether or not my choice being made to head into matriks a worthwhile one

This is definitely stressful

Have been tensed till the max for the last few days and gonna struggle through the coming weeks

In the goal of proving my decision to switch my direction halfway off

I don't wanna at the least being disappointed on myself

Yeah

And actually I pretty liking the very recent label I received from my friend

The Emo Elmo

Well for the part of excitement

It's approaching till the end of semester!

In other words

I am now in the mid-way before I graduate

How great this sounds eh?

Life never been so much nicer since one of my badly wanted to finish up things would be Ending life in matriks

Hey city lights

I am coming:)))

and Hey you I ain't materialistic

Just a little realistic to survive

What do you expect?

Pure-minded and innocent being?

Nah!

That will only exist in the heaven or well

Maybe in the temple

Don't take me wrong ever

I respected all the religious educator in any terms you would like to call

You name 'em

But sincerely they are great and they have my full bow

By the way I am actually blogging in ICT class

Had fun and will continue to have as long as I still hold my breath:)))

Keep in tune!

This-Particular-Wednesday Phobia

2010-08-03T10:20:00.000-07:00

Darn

We got a replacement mathematics lecturer

He's an Indian

No sign of racism

Just to clarify

Cause I guess by describing one's race might help in visualing much better

As a matter a fact

He is definitely a stereotyped kind of Indian

English-speaking

To be more exact

English-crapping

I was exhausted after all the listening and writing starting from as early as 8am

Plus I think I was suffering from starvation since I haven't got time to enjoy my lunch properly

It's the biology practical before my break freaked me out

Our practical lecturer used to demand us to stand on our feet and have us listening to her music for hoursss(I meant it)

That resulted in having no appetite while lunch

Back to the point

This replacement lecturer expressed himself well from the very first sentence he had uttered

I see no positive thinking from him

None!

All he has got was blaming, scolding, warning and a frowny face

What's wrong with a smiley face???

Is that hard to do it???

You do know mood transmits and emotion is contagious

People have been spreading advises telling to smile when you are talking over a phone

Your friend on the other side could feel it

Even within miles It works

Anyway

It has nothing to do with me cause I will only pay attention to what he is going to teach

At the end

You are right

He was crapping all way long

And

Crapped without a point

This is the scary part

Tomorrow he is still going to take over our class

This is definitely a reality-day-time nightmare

:(((

Life in Matriks

2010-08-03T09:59:00.000-07:00

Well

If you were to ask my friends how am I doing?

They will most probably tell you

Hemm...

He's usually the last to enter lecture hall but the first to leave...

He's the one who sleep earliest amongst the others...

He's kinda having his vacation here instead of striving hard like the rest...

They are right about me

And

My average merely-acceptable results are proves I haven't put in all my effort

I need to stop reading newspaper and magazines and wasting the time I am supposed to utilise for study

I need to behave like a student and refrain from copying works of others by now

As in

This moment onwards

Yeah

I need motivations and encouragements and aspirations

Cause the only reason for me to stay here is to get 4

Only 4 will do

By the way

My mum was actually asking me to eat less cause she thought I had a big tummy

I didnt gain weight

That is all I can tell

:)))

New Perspective of Life

2010-06-03T05:03:00.000-07:00

Have been complaining since my foot stepped on the province of matriculation from the very first moment

For every single thing slightly less satisfactory than the luxuries i have been enjoying

But then

A whole new prespective happens to change my attitude towards life

To appreciate

To not judge a book by it's cover

To accept the impermanences in life

As such i have been longing to spend more time with my family, to appreciate the conveniences and the better in life which my parents have worked hard to provide me with

I too have learnt to not prejudge to not perceive some yet-to-befriend strangers as to give every individual an equal and even chance

While last but not least to expect nothing but accept inevitable and existing changes in life

Well guys and girls

No more worries for me not being able to fit in

Because I am feeling bliss-full for being able to breathe as i am more lucky than at least one third of the world populations who might still struggling for their lives in fear in the outbreak of wars

I am satisfied

Might god bless the world to be a peace one and a better tomorrow~

A Total Different World

2010-05-17T00:35:00.000-07:00

Can you imagine what is the feeling when you are given options yet you chose to come to a world never known to you?

I am experiencing it right now.

In this particular remote, outdated, unreachable and absurdly out-of-my-past-life matriculation college which is sought of hidden within ranges of mountains and caves of the state of perak whereby no Facebook is allowed, no recom is permitted and so don't even think about entertainment available on internet such as movies and songs are total luxury for us, the prisoners here in this invisible-walls bounded jail.

Please appreciate if you are able to use the basic and fundamental facilities i have mentioned above.

It is hell if I were to compare with Taylor's

It is pretty sarcastic to ask 'when are you coming back from hell to heaven?' before I came to matric from Jen especially.

Yet, the once might seemed teasing statement has now no longer so much so an anger-trigger statement.

It is quite true in the sense that everything here is somewhat new to me.

In the bad way of course.

A message from my kmm-mate telling me the matriculation identity card is ready and Off I have to go.

Will be continued.

Start of something new

2010-05-08T21:26:00.000-07:00

Am heading to matrics after spending a month in Taylor's

Thanks for all the wishes and will try my very best not to be too sad(for YINYI), not to cry(for Amanda), and not to come back on the following Monday(for Jen and SuVien) and of course will meet you guys Again(for YINYI who does not want to meet me again) sigh*

Has been hectic with packing up and buying stuffs especially clothes

People are telling bring whatever cheapest stuffs you can think of

And I did:)

School black shoes as my sportshoes, baju kelab-kelab for me to go dinner or library, no macbie laptop no iPhone, no cash.

But it doesn't really matters much.

Since I have decided to go.

There is no u turn.

The only thing I am concern is please keep in touch with me.

Thanks for consoling me not to be too sad and wished me goodluck and promised to answer my phone.

Thanks for asking whether there will be any farewell activities and asking whether I want it.

Thanks for asking me not to go but please don't doubt me.

Now I would like to announce this particular blog is officially activated.

Will update from time to time.

I need a psychotherapist^^!

2010-03-23T19:45:00.000-07:00

I am thinking toomuch

Way toomuch

Especially regarding things or people that I care

Can anyone make me think less and care less?

It made me real upset at times

That's probably why I missed being alone when the agony overwhelmed what I could have afford to bear

And contributing to the thought to be away from things or people that I care

Just to comfort myself by giving the excuse: You are away! You can Finally stop thinking!

I think I have mentioned before

Never ever become the one I care please

I had suffered and am still suffering

Well

At least it proved I am not someone cold-blooded

And I will always keep it to myself

And find solution from within

Or maybe one day

Poof*

I will become someone thoughtless just like that

Haha!^^

Positive mind will help me get through these ~

At least I believe it will ~

What the hell are you waiting for?

2010-02-24T00:13:00.000-08:00

MUM: Since you are so free. Why dont you go and learn guitar???

MUM: Since you are so free. Why dont you go JB and help out your aunt???

MUM: Since you are so free. Why dont you go to work???

GOSH!!!

I regretted so much.

I am DAMN boring right now!!!

Relax~

2009-10-26T19:44:00.001-07:00

SPM isn't as scary as it seems to be

not even burden enough to cause any predicament nor ample frustration

i am like enjoying best of my life

reading novel head on smooth pillow lay back nice on bed and not forget to mention soothing cool air escape themselves from within air-conditioner

i started to doubt is there pressure in this such cute world

by the way

the lost symbol is spellbinding

hope my mind wouldn't get too preoccupied to restrain myself from answering NORMALLY in the later SPM

well frankly speaking

sometimes even stay up late till dawn just to get my apps icon in my iphone arranged

what excites me the most is that I will be finishing my spm by 14th of dec

after which i will be left with whole nice 5days to rock the town

hang out with friends

and why not hibernate for another whole gay day

on the 6th day

i will be on the plane heading to australia

it's ma 2-months long intercultural AFS student exchange programme

i am trilled when i received the confirmatory letter yesterday informing that i am selectly after hell lot of form-fillings, interviews and predictable yet inevitable problems

and there was such a statement in the letter:

The selection process for Malaysian applicants has been extremely competitive and our partner countries can offer placements to a very limited number of Malaysian students.

i guess i am supposingly one of them

isn't it?

i will take it as a compliment

hah

the interview hardly drifted from ma mind

i drove all my way to jusco to meet up with my dad

it was his working day

yet he insisted to bring me along to where i will be interviewed

i knew he was tired though he stressed that it was neccessary which instead i think i am capable of driving there alone-Shah Alam

the interview was held like week long

i'm not pretty sure

simply overheard from a group of students from school of unknown

i was the only lonesome one from banting

others were brought there by their teachers

mine was on thursday

and yupp

you are right

i needda play a really unwilling piece of truant

i swear

i struggle for so long to decide to skip school ;p

there was two sessions per day

morning and noon

every sessions had roughly 30++ applicants

and the interview was throughout malaysia

it's SUCH big issue making my nerve stretched to breaking point

adrenaline bustling my heartbeat to quicken and blood vessels to constrict

but i was lucky

both of the interviewer were being friendly and kind

the atmosphere was comfortable

i have chosen italy

yet it ended up australia pulled my spirit down

hah

mind not

it's still enjoyable~

good luck for me and right after i am back from australia

CHINESE NEW YEAR is around the corner

truely a perfect plan!!!

*christmas will be in australia XD

一封简讯

2009-08-24T08:13:00.000-07:00

生命无常

妳要坚强

你要争气

我们都会为你加油

纳闷

2009-08-18T19:07:00.000-07:00

为什么有 CALCIUM ION 和 MAGNESIUM ION 的水会是 HARD WATER?

HARD WATER应该是冰块才对嘛

那现在这样岂不是对冰块很不公平吗?

明明还是软软的水却称为 HARD WATER

而原本就固体硬硬梆梆的冰块只得到 ICE

让我怀疑 CALCIUM 和 MAGNESIUM 有这么硬吗?

不可能啊

CALCIUM PHOSPHORUS 和 VITAMIN D 能让骨头健康

健康指的错不了是比较硬

我接受

可是

MAGNESIUM 和 NITROGEN 是叶绿素的 FUNDAMENTAL ELEMENT

和硬应该扯不上关系吧

所以我觉得当我们用 SODIUM PERBORATE TO SOFTEN THE WATER 的时候

是把冰融化的意思

蚊子

2009-08-18T18:54:00.000-07:00

最近为了读书

转移阵地

从客厅的桌子

到客房兼书房的床上开始啃历史

因为历史不需要桌子

用的是脑

不过

最主要还是因为灯的关系

我房间真是圣人千虑必有一失

说了都不好意思

是看了都眼花的蓝灯

不打紧

我有的是另一间房

不过

有一个很小的问题

就是蚊子

在我面前示威没关系

因为我没有电拍

在我耳边吵没关系

因为我不用耳朵背书

叮我也没关系

因为我有的是血

可是

当我一直以为我家没有蚊子存在的时候

你给我出现就是不对

所以

你给我小心一点

好久没这么生气了!!!

2009-05-28T02:16:00.001-07:00

激动!!!

是的

没错

虽然事情没有牵涉到我

一丁一毫一丝都与我无关

可是

你怎么可以这么虚伪?

我懊恼

你怎么可以这么自私?

我替你感到伤心

我想

是你的

嫉妒心

狭隘的思想

无耻下流贱格的举动让我不寒而栗

是你的

重心机

灰面的陈腐/城府

有心有意怀有恶意的动作让我陷入恐慌

我怎么可以和你相处下去

我怀疑

我怎么可以和你笑容以对

我迟疑

请你把你那张可怕的面具摘下

不再危害人间

也许

是我误会了

但我选择相信

所闻所见

因为

我就是这么执着

我无法原谅

p.s. 谢谢另一个你倾说了总是舒服的

*****生气是短暂的发疯******

看开了

2009-05-22T02:22:00.000-07:00

最近总是好潇洒地把不知空了

是空了

是从前的我绝对抗拒的一件事

可不知从五月的哪一天

我不再在乎了

因为

我不愿折磨自己

选择了一笑置之

不烦恼

所以

当你再次看到我自信地微笑游手好闲的时候

请别怀疑

我放弃了

当你我比手划脚四目交际破解唇术得到答案之余

请别茫然相信

因为那只是我的想法

或许

就朋友说的般

选择相信就该接受

可我依然不会埋怨问题有多困难

因为

我尽力了

毕竟我看开了

健康是最重要地^^

在为自己铺后路吗?

答应我

2009-05-20T22:21:00.000-07:00

情绪总是难以自拔

陷入了伤心

对任何事情都起不了劲

希望你不然

答应我

去面对它

答应我

去正视它

答应我

最后换来了释放

请你

放下它

因为

我无法忍受朋友你伤心

而我

却爱莫能助

***笑可以很虚伪也可以很单纯我不愿意承认你的虚伪如果你是***

你不会知道

2009-05-20T05:02:00.000-07:00

我讨厌敷衍

因此我学会了从不敷衍人

可是

当我敷衍的时候表示我真的不想接受因为我不懂得拒绝

我认同

2009-05-20T04:39:00.000-07:00

NOURISH YOUR FRIENDSHIP

考试其间

平常时再平凡的人事物

都显得特别有趣

是约束的枷锁让心灵沉淀

一切自然欢喜

累了

倦了

看见摊开在瓷砖上的报纸

心动了

我想

平时我该不在乎

甚至

不削一眼

翻开了

是这么写着的

在生命中

是否觉得这些朋友比其他人更亲密?

称赞他们

让他们知道他们对你多重要

是啊

可是

又有多少人有这份心

这股勇气

去付诸于行动呢?

是天文数字

还是一声无奈的叹息

每个人心中有个底吧?

我会是叹息中的一份子

然而

我依旧有感而发

谢谢你们

曾经走进我的生命

谢谢你们

曾经让我快乐

谢谢你们

让我们一起学习成长感恩奉献 (好陌生好熟悉的话同时却很无力哈)

因为

我认同

我笑了

2009-05-18T04:46:00.000-07:00

最近

心情都是DOWN的

没有心动

没有快乐

我决定了

我要把头发都剪了

就那天

我很有骨气地

一股脑儿地

自己拿了车钥匙

开了门就往理发店冲去

一屁股坐下

理发师看着我

闷了一下

因为我头发还不长

才问说: 修?

我很利落地答:

不!

短!

担心他没搞懂

又用很强调的口吻说:

要很短!

后面都剃掉!

我妈说他应该很惊奇吧

一个好端端的年轻人

理发师剪刀停下的那瞬间

我笑了

回到家

不住地又笑了

不停地笑着

我想

是新的开始

是的

为生命努力吧!

*****心情的转换可以很简单一切视乎你我的意愿*****

人间有情篇

2009-05-18T04:14:00.000-07:00

学校教师节庆典

很不幸地

哈那星期五心情都比较差?

我衰

哈那不停地在我面前耍无奈

又再哈拉我的朋友

对不起

我没能帮朋友辩护

是我的错

我只能耸耸肩

话毕

重点是我必须出席庆典

可以不要吗?

我把这疑问吞下肚子了

哈那火气大了

哈那那天还一次过哈拉了学校巡察员

最后还补上了一句

TAK PAYAH BAGI SAYA HADIAH!

是这样吗?

我省起来

不过

至少哈那离开前还BYE了

庆典

不是盖的无聊

可是总有高潮

是我们的妈妈

螺丝的个人秀

唱歌拖拍就算了

还大现殷勤

公然和男伴搞暧昧

需要吗?

虽然你挺寂寞的

因为应该没有人会自恋到把自己的大头照设定成壁纸吧?

除了妈妈你

我决定了

我们逃学吧

请恭喜我

我第一次做巴士逃学

还惊动警察来捉拿我们?

虽然是误会

可是心跳的确有加快到

中学生涯也不过如此吧?

请佩服我

我最后孤自从麦当劳徒步回到我家

我没有距离感?

还没走之前还一度认为没多远?

在我的步伐跨到RK SATAY HOUSE红色建筑屋的跟前

万津人不知道在哪里我应该不认识你?

我的背是湿的

就在靠近BANDAR BANTING学校之前

有辆''城市''放慢了时速停在我身旁

在治安那么糟糕的五月里我会被劝告逃跑吗?

她搅下了镜子

很诚恳地望着我

道出了我无法相信的感动

PERLU SAYA TUMBANG KAMU?

这感觉就象沙漠里的一杯清水

她慈祥地笑着

当我正很努力地想着会是哪个没见过面的邻居吗?

不等我回答她已把车锁打开

又说

SAYA PERGI TERUS KE SEKOLAH

我心想

可是我回家耶

算了

可至少这是个美丽的相遇

唯一遗憾的是我的狼狈

感谢你

我不会放弃生命

因为有你的存在

*****爱是说不出的语言*****

泳池=沙丁鱼的天堂?

2009-05-18T03:40:00.000-07:00

星期日晴

我爸不知吹什么风俗称 angin

他说: 诶 NILAI SPRING 好象新建了新泳池哦

我有点敷衍地应说: 哦是喔

别怪我我正很拼命地在啃化学担心消化不了

他又说: 诶我们好象很久没有去游泳了哄?

我想可以创意一点吗?

第二个好象

我正期待着第三个的出现

他直接下定论了

说: 我们去游泳好吗?

我望着一叠叠化学笔记

还有我慢得可以的进度

我知道我不行去

去了

我就啃不完了

我妈说不可以浪费食物

虽然它们是纸张

我嘴巴却很不争气地说

好啊

没关系?

我妈说考试尽力就好

在找借口?

朋友都说我很弱

游泳=运动=强壮一点?

可以不要吗?

还在找借口?

一下了水

有没有搞错?

是温的

算了

难到我需要等风吹凉了才下水?

我会先着凉吧

什么都没穿

游着游着

做么好象有点不对劲

是人多了

是多了很多

不错多的猪同胞

不错多''苗条''的跳水''高手''

可以不要在我附近跳吗?

一切都不打紧

最离谱的是

游着游着

被一股很强的力量撞开

直接很不爽

现在是怎样?

是一个头有点秃的落没中年危机男

算了

原本心想闪电电死他的

可是水是导电体?

我一起昏?

我忍

游着游着

吸了口气

头回到水里的时候

就在鼻头前有影子

紧急刹车再站稳脚步(还好还没到深水区)

是个胖子

现在又怎样?

胖不用紧

他头朝下

闭着眼镜

HALO?

你以为泳池你阿公的是吗?

我忍

游着游着

遇到鲨和雷末那鱼

鲨拼命开路

因为人和猪都真的很多

雷末那鱼跟在后头

开路不干事

你们SYMBIOSIS COMMENSALISM没问题

平时我还会拍掌鼓励鼓励

可是明明看到我游着那条LANE

你们可以不要NGE NGE来吗?

昏

我承认我衰

*****祝我考试顺利?*****

执着

2009-05-16T09:46:00.000-07:00

Slap me please

2009-05-15T08:14:00.000-07:00

I demand a slap

Not out of madness

Not out of insanity

Yet out of sincerity

Slap me to wake me up from disgust

Slap me to wake me up from being depressed

Slap me to wake me up from losing my hope in my life

Please slap me

I wish

2009-05-15T07:55:00.000-07:00

I wish I could open up an umbrella in the midst of study

Stand right up in silence

Approach a corner

To sit under the shade

For I am bored of the frame

I wish I could drag a luggage

Drive straight to the airport

Fly to any piece of land

Without knowledge of others

For everything had been too expected

I wish I could lay back

Spread wide my limbs

On the beach

For sun would company me

I wish I could get drunk

Gobble all my way

Let the rain stains my face

For I hate conscious

I wish I could leave everything

For I need nothing

But freedom

Blue

2009-05-15T07:53:00.000-07:00

It was blue

It is blue

And It will be blue

Grief

2009-05-15T07:30:00.000-07:00

It's time for me to get on the grip

I had wandered for half a year since the end of last NEW YEAR?

Maybe I really was too childish at the thought that I would devour the whole of myself into study after the very first week the school reopens?

I guess I would have to confess the truth

IT IS

Perhaps what bothers me thorough isn't my attention towards study

Yet the passion towards life

I wouldn't realise I had not been observing myself if I were to be as busy as the previous couple of months

Now

I have just got the chance to settle down

Get myself with clear mind

To start off thinking what is my life at this point

A breathing corpse lurking within tuition?

An exhausted creature seeking for the simple peace?

Or simply a lost soul creep on without destiny?

The grief once conquered me had returned

My mind couldn't help resisting the unknown

I got none close friend even after 17 years of dwelling on this earth

How feeble of me?

I got none admirable personality built up since the first breath I sucked in

How tiny of me?

Sigh

I thought what I needed the most now will be a cup of coffee

A chilling breeze

And a smile from a stranger

To at least convince me of my existance

To at least trigger my nerve

For I am at the edge of grief

王若琳

2009-05-10T07:55:00.000-07:00

一把声音

我妈说

懒洋洋地

我说

不这是性格

我爱她

我更爱她的声音

不需任何牵强的解释

我单纯地喜欢

这毫无掩饰毫无压迫毫无压力的释放

这是音乐

鞠躬

2009-05-10T07:43:00.000-07:00

是的

我很感动

虽然无力去猜测您给我那一股暖流的起心动念

我选择相信

相信您是真诚的

我说

我不行了

你说

你很弱

我说

是这样的我知道

你说

我们一起去吧

我说

没时间啊

你说

我知道那是你睡觉时间牺牲啦

我说

我试试

你说

没关系我到你家去

我说

不了一封短讯就好

你说

没关系我到你家去

我说

有听没懂么?

你说

好的一封短讯

我感性

我接受

也因为这样我更想捉住每一份情绪的牵动

我不去埋怨

我眼泪的多寡

因为

我不再受眶与男儿泪虚伪的坚持

我想

我只想说声

谢谢(你们)

******感动需要坦白******

starry starry night

2009-05-10T07:02:00.000-07:00

是这样的吗?

我怀疑

我想深层点

发现

没错

的确是这样

可能是生活的步调拍子被忽然的不规律给打乱了

是无常

我该如何去

面对它

接受它

解决它

放下它

呢?

显然我已无法再这么理智地思考下去了

我恍然

体会到了原来是这不规律让我确实地知道我还活着

不是吗?

为了面子而无谓的否认不再是我的遗憾了

我坦然

坦诚地接受了

是的

这一不规律让我更珍惜当下所有一切的存在

我又生病了

2009-05-08T03:18:00.000-07:00

好久没有更新部落的冲动了

很难想象

这一贴部落的诞生是一位医生给我的感动

前天晚上

原本好好地硬啃了历史后在床上虚度着

没多久鼻水不停不停地流

原以为只是流行性感冒

第二天照常坚持到学校去上华文班

是有一点硬颈没错

只是时不时打喷涕随后一阵冷颤

没想到

一回到家病情恶化了

先是偏头痛又是喉咙痛的

我又坚持

不去看医生

看了又怎样?

不过是一些家里都有的药丸

不去就不去

终于被折腾了一个晚上

隔天迷迷糊糊间

早上7点

被我妈拉到24小时去

第一间的柜台: " Tak ada doctor!"

我心想:" Otak? Tak ada doctor buat apa buka?"

我火气有点大

去第二间

半睡半醒间

PARENT'S INFORMATION

就开始了无力的笔迹

添完后把它交个一个很像我校一名老师的友族同胞

她看了看

带有一点怀疑的眼神从头到脚瞄了我一下

我想: "hami mengkia?"

不理

突然

她说:"tangan bagi?"

我问:"apa tangan?"

我活在这个市镇17年了

看医生头一次要tangan的

突然

发现到原来量血压

脑海第一个闪过的念头是: H1N?

因为昨天才被一个牙齿大大身体小小的猪诅咒

天啊

不理

量了直接找个地方坐下

我妈说:"这医生是本地毕业的"

哦

敷衍到不行

然后

门开了

叫道:"LING MEE MEE"

我有点迟疑

不过

也对啦

刚刚我添的是我妈的名

进去

坐下

医生:"sakit apa?"

我:"sakit kerongkong"

医生示意要我把眼镜摘下

双手突然循着我的颧骨往下巴按

医生:"sakit?"

虾米?当然痛啦!

然后他就开始很严肃的望着我

他说:"you use a lot of brain recently?"

我错愕

他的手往太阳穴替我按摩起来

他又说:"you got not enough sleep? you never eat properly?"

我很乱

他没等我回答

伸手帮我把起脉来

他摇头

又说:"your heart beat is 115"

我妈问了:"kalau biasa berapa?"

他回:"50++ only"

我也紧张了

他又说:"blood pressure too low"

我妈说:"tahun ini dia spm dia belajar sampai tengah malam saya tau dia stress sangat."

我心想我没有觉得压力过

真的

可是

我心凉了一大片

他说:"Adik, Must SLEEP well, EAT well, if you don't take care of your health how hard you study also useless"

我感觉到泪水在眼角打滚了

他又说:"Sekarang bulan apa saja? BULAN 4 saja, u tau har masa saya belajar stpm, saya takut sangat sampai jumpa doctor PSIKOLOGI, jangan tension sangat, Relax.

我不行了

眼泪一直往下掉

我也控制不了了

他拍拍我的肩膀

是这样的吗?

用脑过度

睡眠不足

营养不良

我不知道我真的不知道

他说:" Just now i was checking for the glands and were swelled up, your HEARTBEAT shows you really in the state of tension it shouldn't be this high, you really have to take care and your BLOOD PRESSURE, LOW, eat well!

我不晓得该如何回答

我很诚恳地向说:" 谢谢你!"

他让我发现我其实真的很在乎

就连我自己都没察觉到

我的身体已经在抗议了

对不起

最后才发现

原来 PARENT'S INFORMATION 下面

是 PATIENT DATA

她该不会以为我变性吧?

*****对自己好一些放松一些开心一些*****

SCHOOL III

2009-03-25T06:07:00.000-07:00

原来

哈利妹妹的口头禅是

SOALAN YANG BAGUS
CIKGU NANTI CHECK YA

好失望

甚至我绝望了

我不奢望哈利妹妹能给我什么

我不敢

因为我无法想象

一个口出狂言的可怜人能带给我多少希望

只期望她不造成灾难就善哉善哉了

*SADHU=善哉=太好了

可怜人: CIKGU DENGAR BANYAK CIKGU YANG COMPLAIN TENTANG KELAS KAMU YA.

她冷笑

她结束一连串连珠炮弹似解释非解释的难懂讲解后

可怜人: ADA APA APA SOALAN BOLEH TANYA?

我想

作为学生的应该

不耻下问

精益求精

所以

尊敬老师的我: TEACHER, CAN YOU PLEASE TELL ME HOW LYMPHATIC SYSTEM CAN MAINTAIN THE VOLUME OF BLOOD?

一个简单的问题

可怜人: OHH, KERANA ORGAN DALAM LYMPHATIC SYSTEM THYMUS DAN SPLEEN BOLEH BANTU MAINTAIN THE VOLUME OF BLOOD.

有解释到吗?

可能是我领悟能力差

对不起

尊敬老师的我: IM SORRY TEACHER. HOW CAN THYMUS AND SPLEEN HELP TO MAINTAIN?

可怜人: SPLEEN CAN PRODUCE BLOOD CELL UNTUK ISI BALIK BLOOD YANG KURANG.

SPLEEN CAN PRODUCE BLOOD???

是我听错吗?

尊敬老师的我: TEACHER, I THOUGHT BLOOD CELL IS PRODUCED IN BONE MARROW?

可怜人: YES YES, SPLEEN ADA BANYAK FUNCTION. SALAH SATU BOLEH PRODUCE BLOOD.

我错谔

同时

我感叹

尊敬老师的我: OHH, I SEE I SEE. THANK YOU TEACHER.

无奈又如何

我接受

尊敬老师的我: BUT TEACHER JUST NOW SAID THAT PLASMA PROTEIN IS NOT CONTAINED IN THE INTERSTITIAL FLUID. I THOUGHT SHOULD BE CELLULAR COMPONENT IS ABSENT?

我还充满活力地拿了课本想她求证

可怜人犹豫了

可怜人: OHH SOALAN YANG BAGUS. LEPAS CIKGU CHECK BAGI TAHU YA.

什么???

真是荒谬

我再次受到重创

**********记得在批评他人之前先看回自己是否有资格**********

SCHOOL II

2009-03-25T05:47:00.000-07:00

气气气

我快气炸了

凭什么

那天

我不知怎的闲得无聊

就随性地站在教室门口

天阴阴地

有凉风嘛

吹着吹着

好不快乐

哪晓得

从哪杀出个黑影

乌七八糟地

还以为是什么不吉利的东西

想说会挥之而过

因为

黑影臃肿的下身

与身材不成对比的小得恶心的头部

让我不禁不寒而栗

是什么丑怪有这般本事还丑得这么交关呀

我好害怕好害怕

怕怪阿姨会做出不规矩的动作

谁让五牛顿的孩子都那么单纯无辜啊

果然

我客气了

她不仅丑怪

还深藏不露

她开始与我交锋了

她使出看家本领----前后蠕动光波

我毫无招架能力

再来

她趁势追击

白眼照光光

我败了

彻底地败了

狗婆以不屑的口吻说

PANGGIL VINO LA!

TAK FAHAM APA SAYA CAKAP KE?

CEH!

震惊

震惊啊

**********人生难免会挫败, 切记好人总比丑怪狼狈**********

SCHOOL I

2009-03-25T05:21:00.000-07:00

THE first monthly exam had just drifted by in such a haste manner

ITs a bitter one

IT lasted for a week

BUT right at the very third day

MY stomach wasn't in the circulation anymore

FOLLOWed by the company of fever, migraine and sole throat

NOW that I am confident they are best friends

IT urged me hard enough in the matter of fact that I merely slipped off my grip on the questions

YET

WHAT pissed me off the most was the following week of holidays

I missed all the fun

I laid just like a breathing corpse

WITHout able to do anything

EVEN not an attempt to embrace my computer

ROTI was my only source of energy

I still remembered when I went to visit the doctor

LAU : Sakit?

ME: Deman, sakit kepala

LAU : Mulut buka

(thermometer was stucked right under my tongue)

LAU : Deman TINGGI LA (sambil menggelengkan kepala)

39 degree celcius

BASED on my biology knowledge

Enzymes which are made up of protein as their basic unit undergoes the lost of three dimensional structure and the whatever bonding doesn't existed anymore for they are denatured at the extreme temperature.

NO wonder it is advised best not to take in heavy food

AND

SINCE ages ago

I was known having low blood pressure

UNmistakably similar to my mother

MIGRAINE loved us the most

THE back portion of my skull as if unknown pulling forces trying to tear my scalp apart

HOW pity of me

BUT

WHEN all the bad happens to you

THE best thing will not be distance

HEHE

THE school reopened

AND I stunned at the marks scribble on my CHEmistry and PHYsic paper

NOT too high in fact

ONLY 98%

BUT it ends up to be worthless for it's just the first monthly test

**********written in english: specially for esther**********

IM SORRY

2009-03-25T05:15:00.001-07:00

Esther

ITs approaching april now

YET I am really sorry for not greeting you Happy birthday

SOMEtimes I just couldn't face it

WHENever I saw the pop up indicating your sign in

WIThout realising my finger involuntarily sign out

HOW feeble of me to express my apologize

TOGETHER with my utter joy

FOR I got to know from your blog you are doing great right at the south from where I am standing

ESTHER

IM SORRY

MY heart melts everytime I saw your comment

THANK YOU for everything

WE miss you a lot

好久

2009-02-22T03:49:00.000-08:00

五后的生活篇四

2009-01-23T00:37:00.000-08:00

刚从挪哈那的房间出来

到生物室去

一步入

Stella就挥了挥手

示意让我到她的身边坐下

她：“振峰，我想请你帮忙”

我：“说吧”

她：“我想请你帮忙主持，要说英语的你最适合了”

我：“好吧”

我想都没想就答应了

晚餐吃到一半

手机响了

是他

阿君

其实我连看都没看过他

听也没听过他

去也没去过那个地方

就答应了阿君

他：“明天练习你可以到吧？”

我：“好的”

到了

我也不晓得是什么勇气我按了门铃

开了

进去了

我：“阿君在哪？”

我就自个儿地往未知的方向走去

一看

喔！

是你喔

我看过

纯粹看过

后来

他：“这样很严肃喔，播点音乐”

怎料

是炮竹声

一点点惊吓

我吃着他给的饼干

他：“振峰”---英语腔很重

我一个不小心把饼干捏粹了

撒了一地

完蛋

第一次见面我就乱来了

尴尬了一会

我的伴是个女生

马来女生

很怪的是

她好爱华人

的文化

她懂得光良，曹格还有好多好多

还说我喜欢周结论

结论？

什么来

后来

原来是杰伦

我播梁静茹的属于

她眼睛一挣

静茹kan?

哇赛

一流

ICHIban

傻眼

*****终点前路途的风景总是迷人的，你只需要放慢脚步*****

五后的生活篇三

2009-01-23T00:08:00.000-08:00

什么

我们的道德老师换了

而且

还是传闻中“拥有十五年经验的”老师

我呸

一个连对自己的健康都不负责任的老师

让蝴蝶袖粗得像树干的老师

还无口齿的

幼稚的

妄想用她那狰狞可恶的声音来弯转事实

雅丽不是盖的

一声不哼就把作业往桌子上扔

干得好

那毒婆活该

挪哈那不错地告诉我这悲惨的消息

谢谢

还把我留下

特地帮我补习

看来那毒婆在教师界也不错出名

虽然只是一张练习纸

我会永远记得

Bertanggungjawab dan amanah

感恩

不过话说回来

农历新年就在大后天了

挪哈那：“生日快乐”

我：“哈？”

挪哈那：“生日快乐”

我："哈哈哈， cikgu 生日快乐tu happy birthday la"

挪哈那："ya ke? macam ni kong he fa choi la"

是你让我在一无四处的学校里唯一寄望得到安慰的

而

卡落淋："Pity you la. Noone else can help ya?"

我："nevermind la teacher!"

我扛着书一辆一辆车地找

找不到

没关系

问人不懂

没关系

继续找

找着找着

我突然想起

是喔

卡落淋说："My car near the fence there"

原来

学校还有第二道墙

太阳还真不是普通的大

搬了一叠又一叠

好在D同学和T同学三至五秒钟之久的帮忙

好过没帮嘛

欣慰的是

卡落淋从二楼："THANK YOU so much"

挥了挥手

把钥匙还给她时

是微笑的

还亲切的和我握了手

卡落淋："Gong He Fa Chai ya, angpau ler?"

我："Teacher i havent married yet la, hahaha"

是的

我最后连握笔的力气都没了

却很开心

是笑的

*****是微笑让人有继续前进的勇气*****

五后的生活篇二

2009-01-22T23:29:00.000-08:00

话说

其实还满是兴奋的心情

再次不争气地被迷失流失打败了

短短的

帮我查一查

到底是我们改了时间后撞期了还是“它们”在晓得的情况下不巧地碰在一起

什么？

怎么可能？

我们已经整整一个礼拜都在广播了也

“它们”的考试还和我们同期

好的

我用“它们”是因为你知道的

狗

不是一般的狗

是乌漆嬷黑的狗

没关系

我去调查就是

问着问着

最终按捺不住心中的不忿

是刚决定的

D同学果断地猜测是特意的

我同意

百分百的

算了

我们让迷失流失去处理

一切顺利

怎知

当天马上就有两位

不不

严格说起来是三位

态度恶劣

野人似的黑皮

竟然到对方的考试去

生气生气

气毙了

没法

那是他的选择

一位老朋友

对他的表现越来越失望

我想我该快绝望了

怎么啦

我说啦

你不听啊

明明字字句句告诉过他的问题

但

他没领悟到

只做表面工夫

没实力

没势力

没关系可攀

更没上进心

做表面工夫就算了

还做得一点都不漂亮

我只好

不理会他

“振峰我现在应该做什么？”

我无言

不看他一眼

更不回答他

心里想

老兄

给你工作岂不是帮倒忙

你就继续穿那空有其表的黄袍北

想骂又不行

还是不是朋友的好

相敬如宾

骂你是也不需要客气

唉

我好累好累

真想哭真想笑

夜还是深的

却不及我海般的深却冷

心淡了

心灰了

*****让忘却减轻我的痛楚*****

五后的生活篇一

2009-01-15T05:32:00.000-08:00

只有两个字得以形容

心亡

是个忙字呀

其实虽然辛苦

我懂得我该珍惜的

有的忙是幸福的

我明白

可有时还是免不了埋怨一句

浮肿的眸子

湿背的汗珠

好累啊

在班上的时间还比外出的时间少

进到班上

看着板上的笔记

得望上好几番才搞清楚

还没清醒前一箩箩的功课又往家业里加

唉

我的悲哀谁了解(有点少年未知愁滋味的感觉^^)

最近

超不满的是一些百孔皆入的一些苍蝇

什么嘛

自己不问问自己有几两重

"我们听说不需要考试叻"

"我们都不懂有得申请"

好啦

好啦

没关系

我们的确疏忽了

可是

有些老师总是说一套做一套

"Jadi pengawas kamu yang bertanggungjawab ya?"

"Boleh cikgu!"

然后呢

今天竟然透过别人让我去见她

向她解释为什么分配不均应

情绪跌入谷底

算了

也不是第一次

其实

我很对不起我的朋友

迷失流失过分的言词

我没及时澄清

可我相信清者自清

她说:"对不起,可能是我先入为主,他给我的印象不好!"

她说:"自私! 以自己为中心!"

她说:"为什么你们能接受他这种朋友而不能接受M朋友?"

不明了

什么?

不会吧

我的朋友有你讲的这么糟吗?

对不起

我没纠正她

开学第二个星期了

不断地旋绕在师生间的问题好不自在

朋友间

更让我失望

"Saya ada lagi dua perkara perlu buat tau?"

奇怪

全世界就只有你忙

我很闲

我也想快些解决啊

又是累坏的一天

功课等着我呢

***笑笑没烦恼***

2009年 1月 8日有你的最后一天

2009-01-10T19:37:00.001-08:00

诶斯特

你要离开了

伤感

为了你

我变成下水模样

为了你

不惜地疯狂

是的

我原本打算中五了

就像两块肉说的酱

FORM5了诶

还主席叻

顾一下形象

我在班上又拔罗波地又不理会你们不断地犯规

后来被挪哈那训了几句

不过没关系

那是最美的回忆

那些照片中的笑脸是我们对你的祝福

不过希望你记得有我这个38的朋友

TARIK LOBAK TARIK LOBAK

TARIK TARIK

TAK DAPAT TARIK

TARIK TARIK

TAK DAPAT TARIK

爱你哦

****下午****

疯狂啊

简直疯狂啊

我的理智完全失控了

不但延续了罗波的故事

还癫了起来

呵呵

我不但教会了低年纪的一些朋友

腥腥的巴蕾舞

沙漠的热情的扭摆舞

风靡一时的POP不是气水

还把我的形象毁了

不过还蛮开心的啦

****晚上****

阿诶

今晚的夜空好漂亮

因为

是有你的最后一天了

我补习后就赶到叮当和你会合

发现你换了眼睛

不错漂亮的

拍了不错多的照

美中不足的是雅丽的爸爸一直出现

呵呵呵

那天的你好低落

我不哭

要你幸福

我不哭

要你快乐

加油

让万津的天空为你自豪!!!

2009年 1月 7日有你的第三天

2009-01-10T19:05:00.000-08:00

两块肉和一块肥肉在讨论补习两块肉爸爸的事

...

...

...

到今天还没结论

亲爱的第十位到底何时才会出现

不好意思

突然发现

上一张帖

才是今天发生的

好北

将错就错

就话说昨天

适应周的第一天

开心

是PRS的第一波主打

得强势推荐

是本人主持学校的历史

学到了

原来REV 是读着 REVLON 不是 R.E.V

呵呵

谢谢诶斯特!!!

阿诶是好得没话说了

特意留校陪我们一群肉

其实很舍不得她

很爱很爱你

所以愿意

不牵挂你

让你飞到更心福的地方去

是的

我们太爱你了

阿诶

你要加油

我想说

你真的很屌

很棒!!!

话说我们将要录取新的PRS了

题目有我有份参与

可是

我捣乱的成分居多

呵呵

说了一堆费话就是为了赶快回家

伪君妹刚好今天留校

所以就一边啃黄梨

一边回家

感谢她妈妈送我到补习门口

T女士还是一贯的很烦

不过她真是个好老师

可是今天的她讲笑话我真的很风情的姐姐-不解

可能太累了

在学校一整天了还冲去补习

晚上

一回到家就中骂

做么你去补习

酱累还去补

算了

我和我妈讨论着补习事宜

很生气

很生气

我明明很和气的讨论着

算了

后来气到躺在厨房睡着了

连碗都没洗

后来气消了

就去冲凉

夸张

我才要抹身

门玲响了

第一次

应该是SALES-不理

第二次

应该是马来仔在玩不理

第三次

不祥的预感

快快冲出冲凉房

手机响了起来

看了一眼

我就知道一定是她

伪君小姐

请你下次耐心一点

原来你为了WINNIE来的

后来就跟着她回她家

一边讲闲话一边看电视一边定洞

什么!!!!

我总算在伪君的家明白T小姐的白色幽默

不是很卫生

不宜公开

回家

晒了衣服

到头就睡

今天还是没下午觉睡

2009年 1月 6日有你的第二天

2009-01-10T18:20:00.000-08:00

惨了
就是今天

我亲口把我的人生陷入泥坑
是我的嘴巴太诚实了

对不起
哈利波特的妹妹

我是特地的
突然好想念去年的BIO老师哦

虽然对的我承认我有分联名签署把她给换了
可是在哈利妹妹和她之间

我选择她

是我们错了

哈利妹妹的嘴巴真不是盖的

可谓口无遮拦

还没搞清楚状况就进来口沫纷飞

我还真好久没口出成章了

最后

她总算有点虚心了

问道 BETUL TAK??

我很不好意思地回答

CIKGU SALAH LA
HYPOTHESIS PUN SALAH

是有点大声的啦

她嘟了下嘴巴

啊搁第一个转过来你完蛋了的眼神看着我

其和颖不客气的说你BIO FAIL 定了

我也这样觉得

呵呵

算了算了

学生回答老师的问题天经地义

后来我转诉 "迷失流失"

她说我活该

****下午****

夸张

太夸张了

一整个下午根本被耍了

中一的学生

我中五也

他们一来到

我说看着我

他说看什么看你又没有很帅

什么?!

算了

我又说用心玩哦

他又说这么幼稚的游戏你们也想得出

什么?!!

你中一罢了

可是我忍着

不断细声地和他们沟通

我只能说我们是不同世界的人

第二批真让我松了一口气

我轻松多了

闲着没事做

我连续出了好多诈

原本应该要自转四圈的

我意思意思地让他们过

呵呵

更绝的是

我让一般人花了一辈子的时间才做好的MERNARA

一点点夸张啦一辈子=12分钟

我只花了解情况秒钟就让我的组员以秒杀的成绩让其他两组目瞪口呆

花哈哈

不错不错

做错了事还这么开心

恶心

说看恶心就讨厌

单单今天粗略的计算应该被骂恶心上万次了

恶心!!!

话说回头

超担心牺牲了的补习会教些什么

毕竟中五了

实习老师的红美丽不错舒服的

不过我发现老师驾车没穿鞋

呵呵

老师放我在路口

我漫步回家的路上

风一直飘

叶潇洒地微舞

真的很有诗意

不错不错

到家了炸到!!!

我爸竟然回到家了

有点不开心

算了

晚上不惜时一直被某人攻击

后来我反攻了才平息了

好累好累的一天

累到一塌糊涂

明天应该有下午觉可一睡吧

2009年 1月 5日有你的第一天

2009-01-10T18:02:00.000-08:00

~~~~哦挪哦(英语)==''

果然时光还是随缘的好

倒带是很晕的

呵呵

今天我起得特别地哪个那个早

早餐超 "丰富" 的

没关系

我一向来都对早餐没寄望

呵呵

到学校

赫然发现学校门口前怎么会一圈圈 "哦塔塔" (福建) 的

有点哪个的那个

不过算了

本人对那一点兴趣都 "波" (福建)

一直注明很哪个的那个麻烦

醒目一点北

第一天就累到不成人型

拌君如拌虎是对的

真不该把自个儿的头往虎穴榨

算了

谁叫我是个使命必达的哪个的那个

首先线到 "迷失流失" 的房间报道

先从新学年的适应周向她详细的报告

我不断的察言观色

不过还好

她不错的点头

不错的说 "威力羊威力羊"

把镜头转向我亲爱的 "挪哈那"

不过我忘了发生虾米事

只记得哈利波特的妹妹在筛选班执委是我大嘴巴的发功

呵呵

这一整天我的嘴没停过

因为我想从明天起就发奋图强

11天前的2009年晴

2009-01-10T17:55:00.001-08:00

原本打算可以好好地布置下下我的部落

新的一年嘛

想说可以天天夜夜刷新我的近况

哪晓得

呵呵呵

汤泡了还没喝就冷了

所以

不就11天后的今天再补上

哈哈

还真聪明

说真的我已经忘了发生什么事了

就酱我把时间直接 "发试佛额" (英语) 到开学的那天早晨~~~~

wow

2008-12-26T03:42:00.001-08:00

i couldnt believe i wrote something like dat in the previous post...
and i finally got myself an answer...
which i think might satisfy me...

"if you feel comfortable of wat you are being, love it full-heartedly and cherish it"

dats wat i had to do...
to accept it...
yupp...
i admit dat and i confess dat i dont act like wat a teenage boy should...
its the environment twisted and moulded my personalities...
yar...
environment is the one to be blamed...
but...
i appreaciate alot wat im having and yet to be achieved...
i love my family all my friends and every single occation in my life which give me such impact...
and im learning to pray every night for creatures which name are known or yet to discovered...
i prayed for your health ur happiness and your safety...
to bless you away frm danger frm worries frm troubles...
to vanish your unwanted emotion and feeling...
feeling great all the time and thanks for living...
for every single breathe we takes in...
and...
i shall earn a happy life...
live the way i wanted to and used to...
even though its always myself...
im sure dat...

im happy...

what?

2008-12-26T03:28:00.000-08:00

what?
its the day after christmas...
wonderful day i guess...
wake up early wif the rhythm i used to...
and i just too boring...
holiday aint relaxing though...
nor beneficial though...
yet always tempting...
but...
its still too long for me...
browse thru' blogs' of others...
its like...
wow...
i rilly hav to expect the unexpected...
i found out and experience dat i got a huge gap between me and my agemate?
wat they call ppl in the same class classmate...
so i think its better to call them agemate rather then friend...
i just have rilly little living thing i could suggest and made them as friend...
i couldnt rilly define wat friends are...
just dat at times of lonely...
i could still recall the moment of joy we did skiied thru...
perfectly nourishing i should consider...
and...
back to the point dat i found out the gap is out of measurement...
they are likely really active in their social activities...
with parties or having meals together and everything i did not do and will not do...
im thinking rilly hard...
wat differences us so much...
and...
im kinda worried as...
as...
im nt interested in those activities i might or i must like them in my age...
i dont like outing i dont like chitchating i dont like spending my time just to hang out with buddies...
its weird...
even alien to them i think so...
but...
ya...
yaaa its true dat i noe the situation very well...
its just out of my control...
me myself hold firm wat i used to be...
alone...
and...
and being oneself...
but...
my life is still exciting wif wondeful memory...
wondeful...
exactly the word to describe...
and...
i havent got real big trouble yt...
if to made out one...
it would be my relationship wif friends?
mayb not...
cause i just still like them...

what?

childish

2008-12-25T03:51:00.000-08:00

im wondering...
deep and hard...
is it dat when ppl grow older and the years piled up...
their thinking and the way they act are just like newly born babies?
it amused me alot...
but at the same time i was confused...
it shouldnt be like this...
is it?
for me...
of course maybe im still young and i couldnt rilly understand what their mind made of...
just dat at least i used to think they should be more mature as they aged...
and shouldn't they be more opened minded?
the situation is dat one of my closest mate of mine...
blame the husband of hers dat he do ntg since tenders years of their children...
its like...
wow...
how could it be...
im their children...
and i dun even ever think dat my dad is whom she described as not Wanting to help...
instead...
my dad indeed help alot of tiring chores besides his mind-squeezing job...
and...
i hardly believe dat she voiced out something like this...
ridiculous piece of joke i would consider...
but...
she does put in her life time effort in helping and booasting the family situation...
she did...
but it just doesnt equalise dat my dad is either nt willin to help or just helpless...
the atmosphere is just chilling freezing cold...
even the tiniest droplet of water vapour could condense into rain pour...
she for me is rilly acting likewise those cuty babies with puffy eyes and tiny little finger and palm and everything who couldnt even start walking...
mayb i just dun understanding what it is like when someone is old...

总是颓废

2008-12-20T07:18:00.000-08:00

看着桌上的你们...

有种莫名的失落感...

我知道的...

明白的...

我需要你们...

我迫切地需要你们...

时间不留人...

可我总是提不起劲来...

力不从心还真是切切实实地发生在我身上...

懒惰吖懒惰...

可以离我远去吗?

我想...

该休息充电的都够了...

还真是时候去理会你们了...

可你们却总是遥不可及...

一天天流逝了...

怀疑着今天过后是不是还有明天...

明日复明日...

你们何时把我紧紧拥抱吖...

期待着...

*你们=书本*

好陌生

2008-12-19T21:10:00.000-08:00

我对我自己说...

别担心...

你行的...

我真的没想太多...

一股脑儿地就按捺住心里头的兴奋...

我一直都嘴硬...

不承认我是期待的...

风情的哥哥吖...

我不解...

怎么啦...

是什么促使我不说出真心话来...

可能...

我想可能...

是一中心中无微的抚慰吧...

呵呵呵...

很微妙的矛盾...

不过啊...

其实当下坐上那熟悉的位置...

好无奈...

有些无助...

战战兢兢地...

一个弯接着一个弯...

手脚不很协调地前进着...

是开心么?

是成就感么?

我都无法理个明白...

我顾得了那个...

疏忽了这个...

我想说...

有句话儿挺适合的...

习惯了就自然会了...

*第一次驾车记*

傻瓜

2008-12-15T19:00:00.000-08:00

"嘿! 告诉你哦."
'说呗.'
"就..."
'就... 就什么?'
"呵呵呵..."
'你发烧呀你!'
"是啊. 是头发有点烧. 你怎么知道的?"
'是么? 让我看看.'
"啊! 好疼啊. 你明明说看看! 你用手看哦! 还用拉的!"
'哈哈哈. 还知道痛, 病得还不重. 还有得治!'
"你...你说舍啊!"
'我就说舍啊!'
"你说舍是舍啊!"
'我说舍是舍的舍啊!呵呵...'
"不闹了!生气了..."
'哈...你生气舍啊?舍啊?'
"再舍我不理你了!"
'小气.'
"我就是."
'我知道.'
"你...你说舍?"
'哦~你听着喔是你说的不是我哟.'
"..."
'好嘛好嘛.开个玩笑嘛.不要这样嘛.呵呵呵.'
"哼!"
'你再不理我, 我走了'
"诶..."
'没名字你叫么?叫姐姐!'
"姐...姐姐咯."
'是漂亮的姐姐.'
"漂亮?"
'怎么? 你怀疑么? 没关系. 我走就是!'
"好啦. 漂亮又'大方'的姐姐! 行了?"
'哈哈哈...和你玩玩的. 行行!"
'哈哈'

mate

2008-11-13T04:54:00.000-08:00

voices of the true moment

for justice nor evil sake

its the norm out of norm of human

as old folks of the good old days pronounced

the more one expected the more the pain one would fate to endure

pay more yet expect none

happy is amongst our seconds

emptiness

2008-10-29T05:56:00.000-07:00

its weird
swirl round n' round within my soul
i felt im hollow
n' time past by swift enough i couldnt tell wat i had done
i understand not this feeling
i keep ponder
wondering wat all these about
im nt living like the way i used to
an empty mood

车祸

2008-10-19T23:19:00.000-07:00

脑袋想着回家后该读历史先还是英语
没舍注意
手拖着脚车车把
往外推
我还来不及反应
脚车连人倒在地上
眼前先是一辆我记得很清楚
肮脏的
红色的AVANZA
它没有停下
它走了
还是该说逃之夭夭
回过神
刚刚放射动作把手掌撑着地上
手有点炽热
膝盖也红
脚车车头歪了
店里会讲华语的大姨
大声地问
有事吗
问了两遍
感谢他
也有一桌马来中年
口吻轻松地说他被撞咯
我没理他们
庆幸只是一点皮外伤
就走了

回家
洗个手
睡觉了

im sorry

2008-10-08T05:39:00.000-07:00

im sorry

to ''U'' dat had advised me n' caunsoled me all the way thru' tense times in my group...
yaa...
at this veri moment...
thinkin bak n' forth...
im glad tat i hv you as my fren n' i appreaciate it...
well...
i nearly forgot...
i thanked you most of the time for viewing my blog when i was still bloggin in frenster...
n' concern for every flow of my emotion n' giv words of aspire...
its rilly warm-hearted...
i recalled back just awhile ago when i view back my friendster blog...
n' i shldnt have deny wat hv u pointed out...
i shldnt had protecting myself frm the truth you are tryin to reveal...
i shld hv confess i do really scared the changin of things frm time to time...
its you...
THANK YOU

im sorry

for those who had tryin to scold me n' to make me aware of wat i've done n' written...
sorry for the content of dat particular blog...
it's a release of temper...
it's an action without consideration...
it's a disaster...
it's a nightmare...
which i really do sorry for everything stated thr...
n' thank you for tellin me...
though in a rather harsh way...
but i like it...
thanks alot...
n'
fren...
onli now dat i found out that in fact u guys hav read frm my blog...
n'
the first thought of mine had been the images of the angry faces frm u al...
im nt scared of getting insulted...
im nt scared of getting dismayed...
im scared to lose any one of you...
every single one of you play important role n' character in my life...
these days im thinkin dat...
time do drift in such a way even glimspes of sight couldnt reach...
i was happy n' am happy forever to cherish every moment we had gone thru' together...
your words would i ponder n' may i bless you all wif all my wishes...
n'
please allow me to keep dat post for me as lesson...

THANK YOU...

im sorry

to everyone n' every uncomfortable deed i had commited...

对

2008-10-01T20:15:00.000-07:00

对
我对是不对的
对
我不对是对的
对
对不对是对与不对的不对与对
对对对
不对不对不对
对不对是对吗
不对不对对是对吗

还是从来就没对过

哈

2008-10-01T20:08:00.000-07:00

哈无聊的假期
哈虚度的光阴

哈哈无奈的苦笑

眼看旧得发黄的日历一页页地卸下

心却慌得发麻地痛痛地颤抖得很

想说是该开始了是该结束了

谢谢你

2008-09-26T08:03:00.000-07:00

谢谢你
谢谢你信任我
谢谢你
谢谢你接受我的坦白
谢谢你
谢谢你愿意为自己改变
谢谢你
谢谢你能秉持你的原则

我相信
你绝对是我遇到过
最正直最讲信用最重朋友的朋友

不是吗?

2008-09-26T07:54:00.000-07:00

很多时候
是真是假
真的不得而知
我想相信所有的全部
可是
往往都只能扑个空
是谎言充斥了这个空间吗?
还是
真诚从来没有出现过?
我认真思考
想说
可能有办法找到根本
我只能说
你没听过吗?
当你说了一个慌
就必须说多个慌来圆第一个慌
不是吗?

无奈

2008-09-26T07:43:00.000-07:00

对不起

我说

对不起

不是我要求的

我也不知情

我只懂

我很开心

就这样

没想到

有人会为了这不愉快

对不起

附和

2008-09-26T07:36:00.000-07:00

一昧的附和
我很讨厌
理性的想想
有那么的难吗
不容易吗
还是
根本就忘了脑袋的存在
我不晓
就像风情的哥哥般---不解
我想说
如果
哪天
你再发现
是的
也许他的确让人不舒服
我想
他只不过还没察觉
给他提醒
给他时间
别背地里摸黑他的为人
我很生气

赴约

2008-09-05T08:36:00.000-07:00

今天
我不再是机长了
我是小孩
有好多好多可爱的玩伴
好久没这样了
笑了
就因为我不再需要烦恼借口
不再担心交代(虽然我不常)
哈
其实
没有人希望
总是在宅里呆着嘛

可我

可我

就是爱睡觉啊

哈

好费哦

眼睛

2008-09-04T07:51:00.000-07:00

深度近视
青光眼
的确是我生命中的一部分
从儿时的懒惰眼
直到现在逼近千度的近视
让我陷入无名的恐惧
我该为它们做些补救的

我想让我努力看看

我的愿望是一名眼专科兼文学家或艺术家吧(还是无法放弃哈)

今天

2008-09-04T07:47:00.000-07:00

下起雨
看见周遭的一切
让我满是担心
是的
你应该开始了
哈
还真感谢让我深切逼迫我的真实感

我想说加油张振峰

爱我好吗

2008-09-02T08:16:00.000-07:00

爱我好吗
我不想背负沉重的绝望
爱我好吗
我不想承担无谓的畏惧
爱我好吗
我不想守在悲恨的阴影

爱我好吗
因为我爱你

笑

2008-09-02T08:11:00.000-07:00

一个招呼
我笑了
一句认同
我笑了
一个眼神
我笑了
一段陪伴
我笑了
一语关心
我笑了

我想说
笑很简单谢谢你
一切让我嘴角上扬的一切

夜

2008-09-02T08:06:00.000-07:00

夜深了
是的
我还听到虫鸣呢
眼皮还蛮重的
睡意浓浓地
周遭是宁静的

我想说是不是可以
来杯
凉茶
因为
好热哦

双眼皮

2008-09-02T07:53:00.000-07:00

凯说峰你割双眼皮哦很迷人
我说 38啦我原本就双眼皮的什么嘛哈
凯说是吗不要骗我一定是为了宥
我说没有啦
凯说真的吗你很变态诶酱喜欢宥很gay

突然

弈说宥有拍A片你和他一起
我说我生气了
弈说如果宥想和他那个的话你愿意吗?

--无言--

我妈说我说

2008-09-02T07:45:00.000-07:00

我妈说我很爱你的你知道吗?
我说是的
我妈说孩子长大后你会照顾我吧?
我说当然我再穷也会养你的放心好吗?
我妈说我老了
我说不
我妈说你大了
我说是的

我想说我是爱你的我是疼你的

顿悟

2008-09-02T07:32:00.000-07:00

那晚
我
突然找回了陌生
的熟悉
我不晓不了当然即不解
这曾是我心中的信念
这曾是我秉持的原则
可我却一次又一次一再又一再
地让丑恶的心挫败了
我不想我不要我不是那么地想
我只不过只不过想要好好地活下去
有时的确我无法承认不寂寞难奈
我能找回那份坚持的对吧?

我喜欢·我需要

2008-07-07T06:45:00.000-07:00

我喜欢雨，
一种忧郁的感觉；
就像我一样，
永远只有，
不安的咆哮与嘶吼。

我需要一双不平衡的翅膀，
用它；
我会到我想到的地方，
做我想做的事，
冲上云霄，
尽情的哭！

我需要一朵玫瑰，
让艳红的花瓣，
血一般的感觉，
沉溺在冷酷中；
让刺，
刺伤我的皮肤，
让痛楚滋润我的心灵！

Death...

2008-07-07T06:38:00.000-07:00

Since when i have been seeking the meaning of life...
For most of the time suffering mortal torture...
Who knows the consequnces could be fatal...
Yet...
I wouldn't give up...
Nt even a bit...
At times...
I might hate myself...
For being so weak n' fragile...
Lack of Consciousness...
Short of Ability...
Poor of Maturity...
What else would do besides tears rolling down my cheeks...
I finally got it...
It will be death...